Here is my favorite picture of Ella. This was taken just after she came home from the hospital. The light coming into the nursery through the pink curtains was perfect! Her facial expression also captures what she's been like so far. Marie's mom keeps saying, "this is the calmest most content baby I've ever seen." We are truly blessed with her.
I included this one just because she looks cute. This picture was taken on the 25th and she's already changed again. If I could, I'd just sit and watch her all day. It's so easy to do. I knew I'd be overwhelmed by this experience, but I had no idea how much I'd change.
I've never felt a sense of purpose this strong. Deciding on college, majors, and choosing a career were driven by a sense of purpose and destiny. Those things cannot begin to compare to the sense of purpose I feel when I look after Ella.
I know that I was born to be her father. there is nothing I care about more. I understood some things change when you have kids, but I'm surprised by how irresistible the urge is to take care of her. I suppose it's been in my DNA always, but when she stirs it's as if I go into auto pilot. I need no snooze button. I don't think about checking the clock or give much thought to when I can do anything else.
When I'm with Ella and Marie, it's easier to stay in the moment than ever, to be fully present for them. I'm sure the intensity of this will fade as the newness of it all wears off, but I can't go back. I'm a dad. I was born to be a dad.